Goodbye Alice in Wonderland - Jewel

It's four in the afternoon
I'm on a flight leaving L.A.
Trying to figure out my life and
My youth scattered along the highway

Hotel rooms and headlights
I've made a living with a song
Guitar as my companion
Wanting desperately to belong

Fame is filled with spoiled children
we grow fat on fantasy
I guess that's why I'm leaving
I crave reality


So goodbye Alice in Wonderland
Goodbye yellow brick road
There is a difference between dreaming and pretending
I did not find paradise
It was only a reflection of my lonely mind wanting
what’s been missing in my life


I'm embarrassed to say the rest is a rock and roll cliché
I hit the bottom when I reached the top
but I never knew it was you who was breaking my heart
I thought you had to love me
But you did not

Yes, a heart can hallucinate
If it's completely starved for love
It can even turn monsters into
Angels from above

You forged my love just like a weapon
And turned it against me like a knife
You broke my last heartstring
But you opened up my eyes


So goodbye Alice in Wonderland
Goodbye yellow brick road
There is a difference between dreaming and pretending
That was not love in your eyes
It was only a reflection of my lonely mind searching
For what’s been missing in my life


And growing up is not an absence of dreaming
Its being able to understand the difference between
The ones you can hold and the ones that you've been sold
But dreaming is a good thing
Cause it brings new things to life
Pretending is an ending
That perpetuates a lie
Forgetting what you are
Seeing for what you've been told

Truth is stranger than fiction
this is my chance to get it right
Life is much better without all of those pretty lies

So Goodbye Alice in Wonderland
You can keep your yellow brick road
Cause there is a difference between dreaming and pretending
These are not tears in my eyes
They are only a reflection of my lonely mind finding
They are only a reflection of my lonely mind finding
I've found what’s missing in my life

Happy Chinese New Year!

All Right! It has been such a loooooong time since my last entry. It's Chinese New Year again. Finally, after four years, I am back home celebrating once again. Yet somehow I feel a little overwhelmed, particularly with the work that needed to be done.

It's the year of Pig. The world's changing everyday. Regardless of how much I think about certain things, the world just keeps going... When will I be able to walk out from the misery? May I wish New Year can truly be a new beginning?

Time does fly... Commencement was over two weeks ago, and my dad's home after ten days in the States. Days have been going by really quickly, but there are certain days that should be remembered:

5/12 Commencement: Under the witness of family and friends, I walked with my grown and cap. Although I still have another semester, still it's good to know that I will graduate with a college degree.

5/13 Trip to Vegas: Of course it will be great to go with friends to Vegas, but I am grateful for the fact that I can accompany my parents and grandma to visit this interesting place.

5/21 Finally I can DRIVE! I passed the driving test two years ago, but never really had the chance to drive because I don't have a car. Finally, I rented a car, and have driven for almost 200 miles in the past two days with my mum and sister. Apart from getting lost sometimes, it feels so good to know that in fact, I can drive under pretty bad situations, such as heavy rain and crazy traffic.

5/26 New York City: After one year, I am going to see the Big Apple again. Am excited to go back as I will be guided by a  native New Yorker. Am definitely looking forward to it...  

This is the last summer... Next year will not be same anymore. Although these aren't always the best ones, I shall live the moment. Thanks for being there for me all the time...